Sorry for becoming a married mommy

Dear beloved friend,
Let me start by saying how much I miss our talks and time together. I'm sorry I head down a road that you haven't traveled. I'm sorry for becoming a married mommy -who spends more time thinking about her child's body fluids then the war abroad, who forgot how to fix her hair and care about pedicures. I'm sorry the most for not knowing how to let you in on this new world that I've entered. Please forgive my selfishness, and help me to find my way back to our friendship. I need that now the most. I sorry for my phobia of the phone, for I simply can't seem to pick it up to just call and say hi. I'm sorry that i can't get past the small talk, because I'm scared of admitting I don't have this new adventure under control. I miss I could turn back the last two years and include you in my life, but I can't. So how do we move forward from here? Or was our friendship not meant to last though this test.